Change Of Plans.......

Okaaay so there's been another change in plans.  I had got a job but never anticipated background check could take 2 months so I have yet to start.  It has been a bit rough cause although remaining patient~bills are not.  I have applied to so many positions its crazy and that's what my life has become.......wake, hygiene, make lemonade (oh yea started Master Cleanse as well), and laptop duty ~ 5 hours.  I know something is gonna come through, I just pray before another month of bills approach *sighs*

~Peace & Blessings~

Playing Catch Up.....

Goodness its been what almost 3 months.....smh. Ok~my memory is not that good so will start with now and fill in. Today was my lil people's last day of school. In previous years their suitcases would be packed and tickets purchased to leave tomorrow~this year.....not planned exactly that way. I just can't afford it like I once did, hell I really couldn't afford it then. But, of course my in-laws weren't having it so they got together, with my mom, and are purchasing their tickets there (California that is). I will be getting tickets to return~no biggie thanks to my new job!!!! :-) Which leads me to that. I got a new job in my field of study!!!! So excited and thanking God for opening the doors cause with no experience its been a long road *whew*

Oh...........I'm "seeing" my neighbor......bad bad bad *sighs*

Alright, although I don't start new position til next week my body is still on schedule from kids so I'm ready to pass out. Will hopefully write more on tomorrow~

~Peace & Blessings~

My Baby Girl..........

So I have 5 more days before becoming a mother to a teen. My baby girl will be 13 this weekend and I'm still in awww of how the time has flown bye *sighs* She just got back from a trip to the Dominican Republic, an experience she'll always remember, and just 2 weeks ago her body joined the beginning stages of motherhood (in which I welcomed in by screaming to the top of my lungs~another moment she'll forever remember). Children are a gift from God that not everyone is blessed to experience. I thank God every chance I get for en-trusting me with such a task. I'm not perfect and do not attempt to sugar coat things for my children, but I do pray that and I train and allow God to lead with every step and decision. Not sure if we'll have that mommy/daughter feud that I hear some mothers/daughters speak of, or if we'll remain just as cool as now, but whichever I pray that she always come to me for guidance and advice and whatever other issues that are due to come her way.

God I thank You for Your many blessings and the guidance thus far.

~Peace & Blessings~

Learning To Date.......

So my mother-in-law has just returned from Jamaica and my baby flew to the Dominican Republic this morning :-( *sighs* I always say I wish I could pause her, she's just growing and growing, but, I'm very proud of her. 2nd~my child has a Passport before her mama smh. I vow to do better lol. Two more weeks in quarter and 1 class left 'til graduation *whew oooo* I am so thankful and excited about next chapter. As for personal life I'm finally learning how to just date~ I had a problem of coming across a guy I like and closing the world off to only him (pledging some love & devotion that he 9 times out of 10 had no idea of and probably could care less). I've had 2 dates in 1 weekend, a 2nd date with someone that doesn't make my heart flutter but is cool to be around. Am I suppose to have butterflies? Is it ok that they may come later? But then again what if they never come........... *sighs*

The World of dating~

~Peace & Blessings~

Planning At Its Finest.......

I almost lost my mind today~ the day did not go according to the play-by-play I had last night. I knew 2 things~my daughters Passport, interview~and those 2 things would take place on time because I HATE rushing or being late for anything. So, plan was to wake, be out the house by 8:15, crack stop (Starbucks), and be outside the Post Office (which I checked online to be sure they did Passports the night before. After, take daughter to school then head to Medical Center HOUR before so could grab lunch with a girlfriend and then head over to interview. Now, the only part that went according to plan was me being out and at Starbucks. Get to the P.O. and they have a paper sign on door which states they are temporarily not doing Passports. Drive 20mins out the way to be told the same thing. We end up driving for about an hour before arriving to a P.O. that does the Passports to find out they open at 10. Are we the 1st? Nooooooo, that would be too much to ask for. Mind u interview is for 12:15. By the time we finish it is 11:45 :-| Daughter has to miss school (another no no cause I believe in perfect attendance), and now has to take the drive downtown with me for this interview that I'm not gonna miss nor be late to *sighs* I make my interview, 20mins before time, I now so worked up have begin to sweat *screams*

Long story short interview went well, dropped daughter off at school (with an hour left, sure did), and pulled off these cute peep-toe 4 1/2inch heels that were killing (but I still looked good :-) ).

You can plan a pretty picnic but you can't predict the weather~

~PnB~

The Comforter.......

Having a hard time getting to sleep tonight. Had a great week, work was good, made an A on my paper, had to tap my son's behind but he's even doing better :-) ..... I did take a small hour nap before his basketball game but goodness was only an hour. As stated in my last blog, haven't had a connection with anyone lately and miss late night talks about dreams, how the day was, fantasies, etc. I've done good being focused on Grad School work but when night falls its a different story. I'm independent because I have to be but have no problem allowing the man to be that, the man. God just hasn't blessed us to cross paths yet~

Until then.....thankful for the Comforter.

~Peace & Blessings~

Moving Right Along~

Ok so any time its been a minute since blogging know that Grad School is definitely kicking my butt (May May May).

This week has been a very cold one, temperature was about 19 (feeling like 6 according to Weather Channel). I haven't had sex in a minute and it really would've been nice to snuggle and cuddle and all that good stuff but staying on track. I've missed the gym not wanting to go anywhere in the cold so have to get back on it, hopefully this coming week.

One of my girl friend's are moving away and I'm so happy for her! She's going back to be with her family and it makes me miss mine even more. I've admitted that I'm not ready but I was holding on to someone~ (actually 2) ~in hopes that our paths may change in the future. I've been doing good putting more focus on myself and even visited my 1st Law Center :-)

My daughter has an audition today with some agency that called her back. I'm a little cautious but she's so excited so we'll see what comes from it. My son my son~well he's been on punishment for a minute. He's reached the "I want to be cool doing things that hurt my grade" stage and trying to get him on track. I tell both my children that I refuse to raise cute and ignorance~

Don't really have any close male friends anymore. At times this saddens me cause use to having someone to call and tell about my day but guess its for the best~ Being more dependent on God and allowing Him to mold & shape me so truly available when the time is right :-)

~Peace & Blessings~